May 2012
82 posts
April 2012
39 posts
The man I only said two things to, but I would rather look from afar.
a filling in my lungs,
beyond what I inhale
its just a shakyness
an unstable curr
please dont stand in front of me
Please dont look around
dont exisit
you bring out my most personal fears.
your a mix of everyone of them
all the ones who scratch to get past
the ones who ripped away
I cant have that again
another man
an indulger
a grasper of all i can give
dont speak with the kindess
it may not exisit but i will make believe
every pain you will press upon me
dont accomidate what i may or may not
dont stand behind me
your not but you stare at who i am
Dont do that
dont do all the things ive wanted
I wanted to be right
I wanted to blame
I wanted to fear for the rest of my life
I wanted to cower and never move forward
dont test me
do it all
but dont ever do it
dont feed into my infatuation
dont feed my imagination
you are all that is deserved
but i refuse to deserve
“you know?
but you dont really know
you have no idea
no incantation, you discust me.
touching every other flesh but mine
I was waiting, you let me wait in endless time
you planted ideas of beautiful lights
the freak and heart falling fast into flight
your pride defines your lustrious eyes
your ego derived from a jokers mind.
i cant bear to look at her without fury, youve see all the wrongs!
but your made for eachother, you both would rather blame another than have eachother gone.
dont blame me for slowly falling inside of my own head.
curling in to a tiny ball to make you believe im dead
in past you made my body slice my heart, disreguard what i want to feel
left behind frayed arteries that bleed into my lungs
Lungs that inhail every ounce of your addictive scent
I lied every day to thoes who would push and press
the one I thought that i could love
left me in this mess” —
but you dont really know
you have no idea
no incantation, you discust me.
touching every other flesh but mine
I was waiting, you let me wait in endless time
you planted ideas of beautiful lights
the freak and heart falling fast into flight
your pride defines your lustrious eyes
your ego derived from a jokers mind.
i cant bear to look at her without fury, youve see all the wrongs!
but your made for eachother, you both would rather blame another than have eachother gone.
dont blame me for slowly falling inside of my own head.
curling in to a tiny ball to make you believe im dead
in past you made my body slice my heart, disreguard what i want to feel
left behind frayed arteries that bleed into my lungs
Lungs that inhail every ounce of your addictive scent
I lied every day to thoes who would push and press
the one I thought that i could love
left me in this mess” —
